Wednesday, December 22, 2010
All I want for Christmas...
As I grew older, the need for another person to get things for me seemed a little silly. I had a job, and if I saved, I could manage a little Christmas cheer for myself throughout the year. My lists consisted of what others might want for themselves. My job was to make their wishes come true. It was something I reveled in and still enjoy doing.
But this year, I have a list. It is not a big one. It is one that I think Santa would have trouble with. Not because of the objects I desire, because really, there are none. It is what I want that is so much more difficult to have right now.
All I want is for our normal to be back. A house full of people. A kitchen full of food. Minds free of worry.
This year, our reality is a little different from our "normal."
For the first time since John and I have been together, our family will not be able to be together for Christmas Eve.
In spite of having no adverse reactions to her chemo that is now nearly half complete, Grandma is back in the hospital, dealing with post operative recovery. On Friday, it will be a week since she was admitted. Her surgery yesterday was successful and I know that she will be just fine.
Grandma's reaction to the whole thing? "This Christmas is something we will look back on and be grateful for. That in spite of everything, we are fortunate."
That, friends, is grace under pressure. Of selflessness. Of making lemonade out of some pretty sour lemons.
But after knowing how wonderful it is to share Christmas with those you love, it is hard to give it up, even with good reason.
So, Santa, if my list contained several pricey items from Tiffany and Company, I am willing to bet that you would have no problem getting everything for me.
Santa, could you send some health our way? We have plenty of optimism, hope and love. We just need some extra helpings of health to enjoy the wonderful gifts we share every day.
But, in the end, it really doesn't matter what is under the tree. What matters most is who is there to share it with you.
Wishing each of you the joys of the season, and the warmth of your loved ones.